Grape and Bye ... !!

Hi you, it has been almost two years since you gave me your first amazing eyes. You know, it wasn’t easy to keep the bottom of my heart for you who never realize it, even when you’ve already realized it, you never appreciate it. It was so difficult when without realizing, I tried not to care about them who wanted to steal me and fullfil their empty heart. It hurts me when you gave a bad fact that you never has same feeling with what I’ve had. Honestly, I do wanna speak loudly in front of you in order you understand a bit about me, that I’ve given my words to you, and I ignored them because the one whom I love is you. But, only in one night, you broke what I’ve believed in. I know that you’re a cool person, but can you respect me as a woman? After knowing what you did to me, I deleted all about you, directly. I don’t wanna call you, miss you, even write about you anymore. I’m too tired, I had waited for you, but you keep on your own zone.

I’m only an ordinary girl who’s difficult enough to love but easy to hate someone. One thing that always makes my heart stronge to stay is your personality. I don’t know why I’m so sure that you’re the best in your religion. I’m sure that you’ll be the true leader one day. That’s way I tried to keep staying with you, although it always hurts me when I remembered I just waste my brilliant time.

I don’t know with what way I can show my sadness on you. Should I beg you? NO! I have my own principle and I hold it. It was my first time I showed my feeling to someone whom I admire, and I don’t  wanna repeat it anymore. Enough that you may laugh at me, laugh what I did on you. Do you think that you’re the best man ever that always admired by girls but you stay cool on them?

Grape! It’s the name that I’ve given for you since that day. I do wanna call you by that name and you give your nice feedback. But, it’s only my illusion. Never come back on my real story. And now, I’m gonna erase all about you, I don’t wanna remain you or write about you anymore. You can have my words that all of this are already finish. I wanna try to open my door for them who really love me, and I’m gonna replace your position, although I know that it’ll be so hard.

I’m gonna try not to look for you when we’re doing our activities in hall as usual. I try not to join in our community (NCC) anymore, because you’ll laugh at me when you see me ever loved you. EVER LOVED ? STILL LOVE? I don’t want to know which one is better to say. Can I beg you deeply to throw your beautiful gaze?